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Wednesday, September 08, 2010


...three weeks of speculating and it has been a struggle.

I practically don’t know what to do if not for my friends whom I could just waste my time talking and forgetting what it was. but still, idle time never fails to haunt me. *sigh.

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

...2 weeks

it has been 2 weeks. i still don't feel good. this is what you get when you're so bad, inconsiderate and selfish. *sigh.

Monday, August 30, 2010

...please don't ask. ;-(

Friday, August 27, 2010

...struggle within.

It’s still a struggle. Anyway, have to get myself back on track.

Monday, August 23, 2010

...the nurse.

‎...while at the nurse station, my phone was ringing with Megadeth's Kick the Chair.

Nurse: That is the most horrible sound I have ever heard. That is not music.

Me: Hey, I'm not complaining about your Justin Bieber hair.

Saturday, August 21, 2010


I bought a collector's DVD of Hulk and Iron Man yesterday. It was on a fancy box with Iron Man comics in it. I've seen these movies many times as I really love Marvel very much.

Anyway, the scene where Bruce was walking in the rain (Hulk), away from Betty is just as heartbreaking.

Oh, well.

*sigh. 5

This is my 5th day of unplugging myself from the necessary. It's a struggle and it's taking a toll into my health. I guess this is what I deserve.

I'll try to get myself on track and I'll start by not using my phone. I know it's hard but this is my way of getting my sanity back.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

…getting myself locked.

This would be my thing for the next few days or perhaps whenever the situation requires me to be. I have been selfish and it took some time to realize from being delusional. I have hurt the people that I care and love and they don’t deserve such treatment.

*sigh. Freeze.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010 3

It was a relief reconnecting with my HS crush after almost 3 days of agonizing speculation. I admit, it was the best feeling so far. I never thought she would call as she practically left and I was about to hit my bed. With that, I woke up late and almost didn't make it to the bus. Though, I did manage to get most of my morning tasks done, I almost skipped my breakfast. Apples in the cupboard just saved my day as I munched one during my first task at the workplace.

Work was easy. Tasks were done one by one in a breeze and went out early to have my passport photograph taken. Andrew, the photographer, was such as sweetheart as he took me for a tour to his studio. He even shared some tips to photography. And this day, I have decided to allot 3 hours a week in learning photography. This would be every Wednesday nights starting next week.

I hope I'll be productive with my photography.

Lights out.

Monday, July 12, 2010 2

What would you do if your crush from high school come back after 17 years? And she has remained the same pretty, lovable, smart and independent lady. What would you do if you she feels the same way you felt all of those years? The same jeans, sneakers and shirt girl who flashes her smile that warms my day anytime.

It has been an agonizing 54 hours of speculating as I was practically left with nothing. To where this thing would go, I don't really know and it's such a pain.

Sunday, July 11, 2010


Why does doing the right thing doesn't feel right? I am hurting and it's a matter of time to understand everything. I am trying to rationalize and it's such a burden getting things in a perspective.


Lord, please help me get my happiness.