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Sunday, December 25, 2005

empty as hell

When girls tend to hear what they like from boys, they begin to feel like they’re the most beautiful. Some even tend to play with the boy’s emotions.

Too bad, I was one of them. *sigh. The worse is, it occurred during the Christmas holidays.

I really felt empty as hell.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!!!

Too bad, still no girlfriend. *sigh

I just want to know how it feels to have a gf this Christmas. :(

Never in blue hell did I get a chance...

Friday, December 23, 2005


Jake, John, Tatay, Aldrin

Finally, we were able to have lunch with our mentor. It was short but we really had a good time. Tatay, as usual, was such a sweetheart. We hope to do things with him soon.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Just Stop

Aldrin, just stop your thing on Kim. Never in blue hell will you get yourself near to her. You’re just a morsel of the universe that she can’t even notice you. Back to your own self and listen to your metal friends.

*sigh. Well, some good things must come to an end.

Saturday, December 17, 2005

#%&&% BIR

BIR is I think the worst government agency there is. For the past 5 days, we have to address 2 problems concerning their program and VAT.

First is the program. I have this specific question that my call was forwarded 4 times. It’s just weird that all of them has to hear my side that none of them can’t even answer. I got so exhausted explaining it with so much detail that after it, I am being referred to another person and explain again. If they don’t know how to address the problems, they just have to shove the phone right to their throat.

Second is the VAT report. Since we were required to pass the quarterly VAT report on a diskette and all the files (1st to 3rd quarter) can be squeezed on a 1.44” floppy disk, we had it on a single floppy disk. To our surprise, we were required to have it on a 1 storage medium per quarter. *sigh

What’s with you BIR? It can be accommodated on a single diskette. Grrrrrrrrrrrr. @#$%^&. You’re wasting so much of all the entities’ resources. *tsk*tsk*tsk

Friday, December 16, 2005

...what a small world???

I just had a visit with my orthodontist and she fixed some of my brackets and changed my elastics.

Of course, it’s nice to talk about our lives since my last visit. I don’t know if she’s telling the truth but she told me she knew Kim’s family.



It’s Friday and Kim’s not here. *sigh*

I don’t know but she’s getting to my head.

“Murag sebo sa baka na lisod i-kuskus”*sigh

I’ve met and seen a lot of pretty girls since high school but never in heaven’s name did I saw someone who got it all. I can still remember the very first time she was introduced to me. Her eyes were smiling. Those elated china eyes just stunned like Stone Cold Steve Austin’s. I tried so hard to hide my emotion but happiness controlled me. I was smiling like a child. I felt awkward as I try to be professional with the conversation. It was like a gazillion of light years staring at her. Very much like the kewazinga, trying to shoot all angles.

I’ve never felt this thing for 9 years. I felt so numb and helpless. Numb because it was profuse and helpless because I’m just a nobody who is trying to equate my chances.*wishful thinking*sigh*

It’s really a hard math. Hard.

Thursday, December 15, 2005


This is the worst of me. I always chicken out when I get myself to a very attractive girl. I usually get snobbish as my defense mechanism. She’s so pretty and she has become a headache to me. I just can’t stop thinking of her since the time she was introduced. I just can’t forget her elated chinky eyes. It was the most beautiful thing at that moment.

I’m also held back to the fact that I’m not the guy that should bother her precious time. I’m just a nobody trying to wish for the impossible. That wishing is the only thing left to get hold of her. *sigh

Well, things have to have their place and right now, I just have to be from a distance.

2005 Faves and Achievements

• Soilwork
• Shadows Fall
• Nine Inch Nails
• Trivium
• Megadeth
• Spineshank
• In Flames

• Soilwork – Figure Number Five, Stabbing The Drama
• Trivium – Ascendancy
• Shadows Fall – The War Within, The Art Of Balance
• Nine Inch Nails – [With Teeth]
• Spineshank – Self-Destructive Pattern
• AC/DC – Back In Black, Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap
• In Flames - Whoracle, Clayman, Colony

• iPod
• MSI Mega Book S270

• The Longest Yard

• Lengua at Avenue S
• Mushroom Melt at Space Burger
• Chicken Curry of my brother, Ivan

• Rafting
• Hiking (sa bisaya, Baktas)

• Can live without a cellphone
• My dog got puppies

Friday, December 09, 2005

Accidentally In Love?

My iPod has been the home of my favorite metal and rock bands.  It is the
extension of me as it keeps my sanity intact.

As I was trying to go through this day, I was really surprised to hear
Counting Crow’s “Accidentally In Love” in the middle of an all metal
playlist while trying to give technical support to my crush.  I really don’t
know but there’s this “imaginary thunder and lightning” during the
conversation.  I was a stranger lost on that moment. 

I was passive about her until the chorus kept ringing through my ears.  It
was really hard to refuse the mushiness flowing through my veins.  So much
effort has been exerted, trying to hide this overwhelming feeling.

Of course, to remain in control, I tried to shy away with half meant shaggy
dog stories while trying to gauge my chances with her.

*sigh. Grrrrrrrrrr.  It’s a nice feeling

Thursday, December 08, 2005


So much for this time. I'm very much overwhelmed. *sigh

56 unread mails *have to read* and 11 programms running? *i just love my AMD Turion64

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Davao Wild Water Adventure

Finally, my project with is up.

Please feel free to visit the site.

Happy paddling!!!

Saturday, December 03, 2005


I was supposed to download a copy of Rammstein’s new album at eMule but what I got was an album of Nightwish (Once), compressed and renamed into Rammstein’s.

I even thought of deleting it but I was curious of how this band would sound like. Very much like Lacuna Coil and I immediately uploaded them to my iPod. Goth Metal rox