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Sunday, December 25, 2005

empty as hell

When girls tend to hear what they like from boys, they begin to feel like they’re the most beautiful. Some even tend to play with the boy’s emotions.

Too bad, I was one of them. *sigh. The worse is, it occurred during the Christmas holidays.

I really felt empty as hell.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!!!

Too bad, still no girlfriend. *sigh

I just want to know how it feels to have a gf this Christmas. :(

Never in blue hell did I get a chance...

Friday, December 23, 2005


Jake, John, Tatay, Aldrin

Finally, we were able to have lunch with our mentor. It was short but we really had a good time. Tatay, as usual, was such a sweetheart. We hope to do things with him soon.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Just Stop

Aldrin, just stop your thing on Kim. Never in blue hell will you get yourself near to her. You’re just a morsel of the universe that she can’t even notice you. Back to your own self and listen to your metal friends.

*sigh. Well, some good things must come to an end.

Saturday, December 17, 2005

#%&&% BIR

BIR is I think the worst government agency there is. For the past 5 days, we have to address 2 problems concerning their program and VAT.

First is the program. I have this specific question that my call was forwarded 4 times. It’s just weird that all of them has to hear my side that none of them can’t even answer. I got so exhausted explaining it with so much detail that after it, I am being referred to another person and explain again. If they don’t know how to address the problems, they just have to shove the phone right to their throat.

Second is the VAT report. Since we were required to pass the quarterly VAT report on a diskette and all the files (1st to 3rd quarter) can be squeezed on a 1.44” floppy disk, we had it on a single floppy disk. To our surprise, we were required to have it on a 1 storage medium per quarter. *sigh

What’s with you BIR? It can be accommodated on a single diskette. Grrrrrrrrrrrr. @#$%^&. You’re wasting so much of all the entities’ resources. *tsk*tsk*tsk

Friday, December 16, 2005

...what a small world???

I just had a visit with my orthodontist and she fixed some of my brackets and changed my elastics.

Of course, it’s nice to talk about our lives since my last visit. I don’t know if she’s telling the truth but she told me she knew Kim’s family.



It’s Friday and Kim’s not here. *sigh*

I don’t know but she’s getting to my head.

“Murag sebo sa baka na lisod i-kuskus”*sigh

I’ve met and seen a lot of pretty girls since high school but never in heaven’s name did I saw someone who got it all. I can still remember the very first time she was introduced to me. Her eyes were smiling. Those elated china eyes just stunned like Stone Cold Steve Austin’s. I tried so hard to hide my emotion but happiness controlled me. I was smiling like a child. I felt awkward as I try to be professional with the conversation. It was like a gazillion of light years staring at her. Very much like the kewazinga, trying to shoot all angles.

I’ve never felt this thing for 9 years. I felt so numb and helpless. Numb because it was profuse and helpless because I’m just a nobody who is trying to equate my chances.*wishful thinking*sigh*

It’s really a hard math. Hard.

Thursday, December 15, 2005


This is the worst of me. I always chicken out when I get myself to a very attractive girl. I usually get snobbish as my defense mechanism. She’s so pretty and she has become a headache to me. I just can’t stop thinking of her since the time she was introduced. I just can’t forget her elated chinky eyes. It was the most beautiful thing at that moment.

I’m also held back to the fact that I’m not the guy that should bother her precious time. I’m just a nobody trying to wish for the impossible. That wishing is the only thing left to get hold of her. *sigh

Well, things have to have their place and right now, I just have to be from a distance.

2005 Faves and Achievements

• Soilwork
• Shadows Fall
• Nine Inch Nails
• Trivium
• Megadeth
• Spineshank
• In Flames

• Soilwork – Figure Number Five, Stabbing The Drama
• Trivium – Ascendancy
• Shadows Fall – The War Within, The Art Of Balance
• Nine Inch Nails – [With Teeth]
• Spineshank – Self-Destructive Pattern
• AC/DC – Back In Black, Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap
• In Flames - Whoracle, Clayman, Colony

• iPod
• MSI Mega Book S270

• The Longest Yard

• Lengua at Avenue S
• Mushroom Melt at Space Burger
• Chicken Curry of my brother, Ivan

• Rafting
• Hiking (sa bisaya, Baktas)

• Can live without a cellphone
• My dog got puppies

Friday, December 09, 2005

Accidentally In Love?

My iPod has been the home of my favorite metal and rock bands.  It is the
extension of me as it keeps my sanity intact.

As I was trying to go through this day, I was really surprised to hear
Counting Crow’s “Accidentally In Love” in the middle of an all metal
playlist while trying to give technical support to my crush.  I really don’t
know but there’s this “imaginary thunder and lightning” during the
conversation.  I was a stranger lost on that moment. 

I was passive about her until the chorus kept ringing through my ears.  It
was really hard to refuse the mushiness flowing through my veins.  So much
effort has been exerted, trying to hide this overwhelming feeling.

Of course, to remain in control, I tried to shy away with half meant shaggy
dog stories while trying to gauge my chances with her.

*sigh. Grrrrrrrrrr.  It’s a nice feeling

Thursday, December 08, 2005


So much for this time. I'm very much overwhelmed. *sigh

56 unread mails *have to read* and 11 programms running? *i just love my AMD Turion64

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Davao Wild Water Adventure

Finally, my project with is up.

Please feel free to visit the site.

Happy paddling!!!

Saturday, December 03, 2005


I was supposed to download a copy of Rammstein’s new album at eMule but what I got was an album of Nightwish (Once), compressed and renamed into Rammstein’s.

I even thought of deleting it but I was curious of how this band would sound like. Very much like Lacuna Coil and I immediately uploaded them to my iPod. Goth Metal rox

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

6 new pups from Boo

Finally, Boo has puppies. We are very happy to welcome 6 new members of our family. They were all healthy and very cute.

It’s really nice to see God’s miracle. Thank you Lord.

Kira wants to see the babies.

Feeding 3 at a time.

The puppies

Getting some nice space

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Davao River Adventure

Last November 20, 2005, I was invited by John, a friend of mine to experience Davao River on raft. I was excited about it and I just can't imagine how things will go as I never had an experience in getting on a raft.

Anyway, it was nice getting to the river. From Tamugan to Lacson, getting through the river has made me appreciate Davao more.

I just can't wait to be back soon.

...back again

I’m back and I’m almost sane.

I had water rafting and some post setup activities at the other branch. It was fun though but being myself, I always get bored easily. I’m just glad that I had done some things that could cover up my boredom. I watched some movies with myself and bought some glorified versions of DVD titles at mantex. Would you believe that I got Megadeth’s Rude Awakening?

I also made some phone calls to some resellers and it’s nice to talk to some people who tend to hate my accent. “Bisaya^ kaayo”. Talking to Tagalog speaking species is entertaining. Hahaha

Anyway, I’ll try to post my rafting pics here…As soon as I get some time.

Thursday, November 17, 2005


It's getting late and I'm still in the office. I just have to finish
installing the server for Panacan. I'm just getting impatient with Windows
2003 SBS so I'm shifting to Windows 2000 Server.

*sigh. Still waiting for it to finish.

Anyway, my day has been fine and I hope things will go ok tomorrow. I just
have to do some payments and some installations and modifications on the
system to the other branch.

I'm just glad that I have my iPod with me. My ears are all for Soilwork,
Trivium and Shadows Fall. *ROX

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

WWE and Eddie Guerrero

I'm a big wrestling fan. I've been watching WWE (formerly WWF) since
nursery. This has been our thing in our family for years. We love the Hart
Foundation, Andre the Giant, The Rockers, Jake "The Snake" Roberts, Tornado,
Superfly, Hulk Hogan, Sgt. Slaughter, Gorilla Monsoon, Bobby "The Brain"
Heenan, Ultimate Warrior and a lot more. Much of it has made our experience
as a family great. We watched almost all of the Pay Per View on Betamax and
VHS tapes. Even the reruns on IBC TV 13.

We have almost known every angle and every story of the superstars. The
debut of Undertaker where he almost beheaded Hulk Hogan. The birth of
"Attitude" where Stone Cold had his famous line, "Austin 3:16" to Jake "The
Snake" Roberts. The controversial fight of Brett Hart and Shawn Michaels at
Wrestlemania . The death of Owen Hart as Blue Blazer.

Dinner time, when we were talking about the day's activities, my brother
Ivan mentioned about the death of Eddie Guerrero, the Latino Heat. I just
can't believe how early his exit was. He's one of the greatest. His frog
splash and his performance in the ring. He's just entertaining.

His stint at WCW to WWE has made him one of the premiere superstars. As a
Radical, Latino Heat, Papi or a great heel, we'll miss him. +RIP


*sigh. Busy as hell and I just can't feel the pressure. People in the
office are all excited for the opening of the new branch in Panacan. Hmmm,
I hope things will go ok as I would be handling more of it in the next few


The blaster caps of my PC's motherboard have got busted. This has made our
computing experience sour. After 3 years, my motherboard has to be
disposed. I'm just glad that I have my toy get all the work. I hope to get
myself a decent yet cheap replacement. Of course, it would be Epox.

I also have to prepare some of my things for Sunday. I've got an invitation
to experience the waters at Tamugan by Davao Wild Water Adventure. I just
can't get my sanity as I get so excited for it. This would be very fun.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Ear Bleed!!!

I’m going to update my playlist for this week. I’m getting some old school
and some new bloods.

My list would be.
• Megadeth
• Soilwork
• Pantera
• Killswitch Engage
• Soulfly
• Disturbed
• Spineshank
• Gizmachi
• Arch Enemy
• Mastodon
• Mudvayne
• System Of A Down
• Slipknot
• Motorhead
• Ill Niño
• Dream Theater
• Drowning Pool
• Iron Maiden
• A Perfect Circle
• Fear Factory

I’m also hoping to get “In Flames” this week as I would like to fill in my
list of Swedish Metal.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005


You think you're all that? I don't think so. I said you're pretty but it
doesn't mean you can have me on your leash.

I just find it stupid and hostile when you tend to "play" with anybody's time.

Well, you just don't care. yoooooooodipooootahhhh

Monday, November 07, 2005

My Top 25 Most Played

Yes! Disturbed rox. :)

Saturday, November 05, 2005

welcome back, Padre Damaso

It's the first Saturday of the month and we were enjoined to hear the mass
at the 4th floor with our chaplain.

It's really nice when we are encouraged to get into our spiritual side but
what really made me hell is, an attendance sheet was placed near the door.

I'm a practical catholic and I really find it funny and stupid having that
attendance sheet on the table. Without hesitation, I didn't get into that
paper. It was like "El Filibusterismo" and "Noli Me Tangere". Padre Damaso
was there. We were treated like the Filipinos of the Spanish era. Those
priests are rationalizing things just to lure us into something. Is there a
come back going on?

I know it's a nice to practice religion but I just don't like the way it was
presented. In my opinion, it has to be our free will to decide whether or
not we would practice our beliefs. Christ didn't place an attendance sheet
at the synagogue. The people were there because they like to hear the
Messiah share His wisdom. It is from their free will that made them changed
for the better. Not on modified and irrational ideas. I was there for the
Love of God.

...Will the attendance sheet be e-mailed or faxed to heaven? This is

Friday, November 04, 2005

Almost Honest

I had fun chatting with Ann until we ended up talking about love life.

I know it’s nice and fun to talk about it but it’s the other way around for me. I had this experience of picking the wrong signals. I was really into a girl until she dropped the usual phrase, “kabalo ka, amigo ra man gud akong tan-aw sa imo”. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

For almost 9 years, I was overwhelmed with that girl. I was almost honest on the process of getting over it. It was really hard.

If only I could do this to myself…

…fdisk aldrin
…format aldrin: /s/u

Sunday, October 30, 2005


I've been exchanging messages with a friend at Friendster for days. I gave
her a call last night and we agreed to meet.

I really don't know the charm of Autoshop but she insisted of going there.
Well, for fun and for spontaneity, I was for it.

Of course, everybody was expected to grind. Having inclined to rock music
for almost half of my life, it was really hard for me to get into the dance
floor. I just can't move my body the way they dance. I know I'm getting
the feel for it but my head would just bang. I'm just overwhelmed with rock

A rock concert would be better

Saturday, October 29, 2005

...peace of mind, PLEASE!!!

I’m having a hard time getting out from my past resignation. For 9 years,
I’m still attached to that feeling... I’m still in love with a friend.

She haunts me and getting over it is hard as a rock.


Oh please God help me.


Hmmmm. I don't know if I'll have a very long weekend or get into the
project with my team. I know that we only have 70 days to get it done but
it's really tempting to do things that I like. I was thinking of getting
bicycle parts and assemble it myself, walk with my dogs or just get some new
DVD titles and watch until I get my eyes tired.

*sigh. I just have to enjoy having this project so we could have a very
good Christmas.without work, without late night programming. just "lip

I also don't know how I survived this very boring day. This day was so fast
and people just tend to be ignored. It was all for the chance to get some
sleep, to get out the place and to get some air.

Anyway, I don't make sense anymore. I'm just getting irrational and I just
have to get more sleep.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

franco loco

Franco was able to visit me at the office and I’m just happy that we were able to talk. It’s been months since our last meet.

We’ve been friends for 11 years and he’s like a brother to me. Music is our passion and this has been our thing. We’ve been to concerts, gigs and contests. This has somewhat made our friendship strong. We also have the same humor and we laugh a lot.

Anyway, we’ll see each other on weekend. This would be fun.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005 whacked

It's Monday and my day was busy as expected. The workstation for health
care got whacked out. I really have doubts in running Windows NT 4.0 on a
Pentium 4 2.4 GHz machine. I'm glad that some people are there to work
things for me. I hope things will go ok on that machine as my officemates
expect it to work.

When bad things happen, good things are always there to get things into
balance. Since the machine doesn't work, the one's in charge has been
always there to bug me. I'm just glad the she is cute. All the pressure
has gone when she smiles back to me. I just love the feeling.

Anyway, I'm also trying to find out when my zipper got opened. I realized
it when I was almost done with my lunch with my orthodontist. To my
disgust, I just said, "Abri man diay akong zipper?!" My orthodontist told
me that it was open minutes ago. *sigh* this is embarrassing.

Monday, October 24, 2005

being single

My friend Meiko was right. I'm getting comfortable being single.

Why am I getting comfortable? Maybe because I'm tired of getting myself
rejected when I try getting into someone. I just had enough of it and being
single has made me find my sanity.

I'm just afraid getting into this situation as my time is running out. I
want to have kids and I want to enjoy them. The thing is, I just can't find
my match. Am I destined to be alone? How can I find her? Until when will I
have to wait? *sigh

If there's this thing as "you're sorry as hell", maybe I'm into it right

Saturday, October 22, 2005


I got so much for this day. I had installed the passbook printer at Matina
branch, had my braces checked and monitored some programs and requests.

I also got a chance to get out and checked for some BMX. I just want to
have one so I could have it as my exercise machine. I know this would help
me a lot in losing weight aside from getting some crunch in the morning and
in the evening.

I just have to decide tonight so we could test and go places. I really miss
getting myself on bike.

Friday, October 21, 2005

somewhat damaged

I'm almost done with almost all of my tasks and I'm somewhat damaged.

I've been to some places today, doing the things I'm expected to do. I just
can't imagine how fast time has consumed. Too many tasks yet too little

Anyway, I just have to get some of air. I'm doing this blog in the office
and I hope to get into good things later tonight.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

hopping in

Finally, my group has met and discussed on our new project. I'm very much
pleased and I'm very excited on getting to the tasks. This would be very
fast and would be exciting.

I'm also thinking of getting my mp3s to DVDs. I'll get some of my time on
Saturday as I want them all in one place.

I don't make sense anymore and I just have to shut up.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

i'm very happy

So much has happened for the past weeks and I'm very happy that things have
gone my way.

Last Sunday, I did a presentation to the board and I'm glad that it was all
great. My proposal was approved right away and I just can't believe it.
I'll be again very busy for the next 70 days and I hope I could get into the
plan. It'll be hell but I know it'll be fun.

I'm also getting deeper with metal for the past weeks. I got Pantera,
Shadows Fall, Trivium, Disturbed and Drowning Pool on my iPod and I hope to
get some to it. Maybe some Cradle Of Filth, Slayer, Dimmu Borgir and Arch
Enemy would be fine. I just have to find them and burn it to DVDs.

Anyway, I have to sleep.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

the thing that shouldn't be

I was just browsing for some pictures at friendster when I got into my
crush's page.

I really don't know. After 9 years, I'm still affected. I was in love,
got over it and now, I'm still hoping to get her.

This is really getting into me right now. I just don't know what to do
about it. Is this true love or something to get things complicated?


I just feel empty

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

WiFi at Avenue S

Hmmmm. I'm glad that I was able to get the WiFi setup done at Avenue S.
Actually, I'm having this blog at my laptop.

Anyway, I have to make this short as I have to do some things for myself.

Friday, October 07, 2005

I'm back

It's been days since I got myself into my blog. I was busy with my work and
sad to say but I'm getting to be normal this time. I sleep early and have
my meals on time.

Work has been ok and I really enjoyed getting into my officemates. Some do
like to laugh and some just get into their shells.

I'm still trying to get into the system as I was somewhat "damaged" to my
previous job. I missed it but I just have to get into this. I have a
mission to finish and I think I could do that in 3 months. It may sound too
much but I just have to cut those unnecessary just to get to the point.

I'm also thinking of some designs for I
hope there would be a schedule for Sunday as I don't have that much time for
that on weekdays.


I also forgot to mention my new toy. I was issued with a laptop and I just
love it. Powered with AMD Turion and ATI Radeon, I just love the feel of
it. I can now burn DVDs, do WiFi and the best of it, its super light.

Anyway, I have to end here. I just have to do some things for tomorrow.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

busy as busy

So much had happened for the past days. I had to attend some meetings,
follow-up some interviews and play some badminton with my high school

It was fun and I'm just overwhelmed. I really enjoyed my new job and my
"reunion" with my friends. Playing badminton has also made me realized that
I have to save money for some gears on it. We'll be playing regularly every
Friday. This would be so much fun.

I'm just happy and I hope things will go ok as I have to finish my
evaluation to the current system of my new job. I'll do it fast and easy.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

T.I.N. and Disturbed

It was a nice day until I went to B.I.R. to get my T.I.N. card.  They said
that anybody could get it in 3 minutes but I was back after a week.  I also
waited for almost 45 minutes and haven’t got my card.

What in heaven’s name are they talking about?  How in the blue hell is that
3 minute process time we taxpayers deserve?  If they can’ t do it, better
shove those cards to their faces.

*sigh.  Anyway, I’ll try to get it tomorrow as I was really disappointed.

My ears were all for Disturbed. I was listening to its Ten Thousand Fists
album and I just love it.  My favorites are 10,000 Fists, Stricken and Son
of a Plunder.  Very heavy yet melodic.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Disturbed's new album

I finally got a copy of Disturbed’s new album, Ten Thousand Fists. I hurriedly went home, ripped the CD on iTunes and added it to my iPod.

The tunes were so heavy. Compared to their previous albums, Ten Thousand Fists’ guitars are somewhat mature. They were not getting to that “Nu Metal” genre. At least, some songs have lead guitars. David’s animal sounds are still there but I’m sort of tired of hearing it to some of their songs.

So far, I haven’t skipped. I liked the new album. This would add fuel to my life.

Rock hard and bleed the ears. *ooaaaawwww

work and meeting with friends

I was able to finish the overview of my report for my proposed system at my
new job and I'm about to present the detailed specifications later in the
morning. I'm just happy that things are going my way.

I also had dinner with Jake. He's our new doctor of Madapakah 13 and we are
proud of him.

We just talked about helping our former high school on Boy Scouting and
decided to visit Ian. It was a great time talking about our things. We
also planned on having a camping and play some badminton. I'm not a big
badminton fan but I'll try it on Friday.

Anyway, I just have to sleep.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Distrubed's Ten Thousand Fists

I've seen Disturbed's video Stricken from their new album, Ten Thousand

It's great to see them back and I just like it. Of course, David's
signature animal sound and their heavy guitars were again off the leash.

I'm also happy to hear lead guitars this time. I hope to get a copy of
their album soonies. This is a must.

...little things

I woke up late (almost 12 NN) and I felt so tired.

With nothing to do for the day, I decided to get into labor. I had my
laundry, cleaned the comfort room, walked with my dog and ironed my clothes.
It was fun but I just hope that the ironing would be easier.

I just find it weird to this man (I watched Star In A Million while ironing)
who is a judge of this show. Is he trying to become Simon Cowell? I don't
think he's that good.

Anyway, I just have to do a concept paper and the master plan which I would
be presenting tomorrow afternoon. I hope it'll be ok as I would want it to
be fast and smooth.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

...some things again

I have to think of ways just to get into some great ideas.  I’m about to
sleep but I can’t.  I was able to read some good stories on the net and this
has made me a vampire.

I miss getting into the wee hours.  I’m starting to act normal with my new
job.  Even though I got a flexi time schedule, I just have to get into it
just to function the way they expect me to function.

I also have to get a new set of playlist for my iPod later.  I just have to
fill in more metal music to it just to fuel my days.  I just have to hear
the crunch and get that “Kill ‘em All” attitude.

I’m also excited of getting my new laptop this week (company issue).  It’s
an AMD Turion powered MSI Megabook.  This would just fit my mobility.

Saturday, September 24, 2005


I'm very happy that my program for the plastic plant has been doing fine. I
just love the reports being generated by it.

I also have my table done at my new job. I don't know what will happen
tomorrow but I'm excited for the things to come. I just have to do some
canvassing and I hope things will go my way.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Top 25 and Pen Pen

Top 25 Most Played Songs in my iPod

PenPen with my iPod...Listening to Nick Cave's version of "Let It Be"


Since Wednesday, I was very busy and I am very much exhausted. I have done
some paper works, updated my systems and attended a party.

I'm just happy that everything went smooth.

I'm still getting the feel to my new job and I'm just excited about getting
my new laptop. I just have to do things double time and this would be very

Hmmmm."Ginanggang" is the best. For months, I wasn't able to experience the
joy of it. Thank God, I was able to pass by near Davao City High School and
grabbed 3 of it. Yehey! This is heaven. :

Time to sleep

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

too much

My Tuesday was loaded with so much of everything. I had a meeting with my
new job and had lunch with some officemates. I went to Darling to fix her
printer. I had to look for some new laptops and I also went to my
orthodontist to help her on her iPod shuffle.


That's too much for me as I have to finish some reports on my system with
Vince. I will be getting there later in the morning and I'm going to start
a new project with him. I'm just glad that I was able to get my demand of
having "Flexi-Time" with my new job.

Again, this would be short as I have to get some sleep.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

a good start

I'm going to have my new project and I'm having my new job tomorrow.


I don't know what to do with it but I'm confident that I'll get to those
things in a breeze.

I'm just excited. I have so much in my mind right now

Monday, September 19, 2005


I got a message from Tito Manny and I'm very happy about it. I got another
job and I'm just excited of getting some projects to it. I would be very
busy as I will try to juggle between tasks. I hope that God will guide me
with all of these.

I just have to be early tomorrow and I hope our plan of getting through all
of the resins, rolls and plastics will be great. I know this would exhaust
all of me. I hope there would be enough for the rest of the day as I have
to meet KK, Jake and some people I expect to show up.

Sunday, September 18, 2005


Finally, I got some sleep. It was Friday when I joined the party of Gold.
I went home at 5 am of Saturday and never had a chance to sleep as I get
into my things. I had to go to the lawyer, to my orthodontist and to a


I went home last night at about 9 pm and as expected, got to sleep.

So far, things are getting very ok and I hope to recharge more. I just have
to prepare for tomorrow.

Out and I'll be back.

Friday, September 16, 2005

*sigh...tsk tsk

Imelda Marcos is on T.V. again. She just wants her jewels which the
government has possessed. It was estimated $20M


I think, Haydee Yorac (R.I.P.) of PCGG has done a good job in getting those
ill gotten wealth from the Marcoses. It’s about time for the government to
get back what it was for the people of this nation. I just want to say
“"BAGA KA UG NAWONG IMELDA"” in trying to hold on the auction for “your”
jewels. How in the blue hell have you got that money to get those jewels?
Imagine, estimated at $20M plus your shoes, your dresses, your everything …
You were just a first lady and I don'’t think you could generate that much
money. But with your GREED, that could be it.

You’'re just a GRADE A THIEF.

If everything will be sold, it would be a big help for our government to
spend on its projects and services. The issue of how this money would be
spent would be another thing. *sigh

Thursday, September 15, 2005

some new things

I'm glad that I was able to do some tweaking on my program based on a better
encoder. I was able to get some bugs and was able to manage it properly.

Anyway, I was invited to observe flag football on Friday. Hmmm, I guess I
just have to get into it and maybe play this sport. Its been years since I
had played and I think it'll be fun.

I'm also getting some paper works and do some calls. I just have to be
early later and get into my things.

I also like to have a scooter for myself. I hope it'll be fun as it'll be
prone to accidents.

So much for now and I just have to get more sleep

Wednesday, September 14, 2005


As much as I would like to get some sleep, I just have to stay awake to
finish some readings.

I'm having a hard time getting into it so I just have to have a quick and
short blog to divert some boredom. I had my iPod recharged, updated some
playlist and get to prepare some things later in the morning.


...quick blah blah

Never had a good sleep but I tried to get my sanity. I was in "Safe Mode"
and I'm very happy to function as expected.

It's really a nice feeling to secure solutions for my client. I was able to
do it fast and my client is happy. *sigh.Yehey!!! Thank you Lord.

I just have to get many things at this time as I need to recharge for

My eyes are getting heavy.Out for now.

Monday, September 12, 2005

Pacquiao and blisters

Yehey!!! Manny Pacquiao won. I just love the feeling. He really has this
strong fist. Velasquez was way out of control after those lightning
punches. He is getting more intelligent than ever. He was able to get out
of Velasquez' dirty moves. *sigh

On the other side, Morales had his taste of defeat. After his commitment
for a rematch with Pacquiao, he told the interviewer of thinking over his
rematch with Manny. Hmmm. He's having second thoughts about it.

Anyway, I just got my left hand blistered after playing with the "box". My
brother Ivan made one for us and I'm happy with the sound of it. Since
Franco was here, we played some AC/DC and Disturbed on acoustic. It was
really fun.

Ok, I just have to get back to my program. :)

Sunday, September 11, 2005


I've been watching Pinoy Big Brother ever since it was aired and I like the
show very much. I really like the things that have been happening and I
don't care if some people would call me "shallow" about it.

Anyway, aside from the show, my eyes are for Nene. Since it was aired, I
just like Nene as she was, she is and she will be. This is the girl that
I've been looking for. *sigh

Nene, I think I'm falling for you *sigh

movie critics?

Movie critics are just a bunch of nobodies trying to get a spotlight.

Saturday, September 10, 2005


I'm getting tempting offers and I just have to transcend to get their whole
picture. There's so much of everything that I'm clouded with their offers.


I'll get to fix a network later and get myself to hunt for new materials.
I'm sort of bored with some things here and I'm thinking of watching "The
Longest Yard" on the big screen. I hope I could get someone to watch it
with me.

I also got the complete discography of Motorhead and I'm excited to get them
on my iPod.

Out for now.:)

Friday, September 09, 2005

Drunk again

Got home at 5:30 AM and again, I was drunk.

Its 10 AM and I can't sleep anymore. I'm just glad I don't have a hangover

I'll get to prepare some things for my schedule later. I just have to check
some clients on their softwares. BSA will be having its raid on the 16th
so, it would cost them big time or get into jail up to 9 years plus penalty.

Anyway, I just have to prepare.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Patience from me

As usual, I was at the plastic plant to monitor my program and the encoding
of the data. It was fine but, still, I can't figure out how a "computer
science graduate" became an encoder. For the nth time, he was still asking
me on what to do on how to encode some modules. I'm a patient being but
it's being tested again by him. *sigh

Am I making myself clear to him? Am I making sense? Does my program really
that hard to understand? *sigh Anyway, I just have to device some
solutions to it. It's funny that I have to device something not related to
the system. Should I be dealing with psychiatry, psychology or whatever? hmmm?

I'm also getting my ears to Breaking Benjamin. First, I find it ok until
they sound much like Nickelback. I don't know... Maybe I just have to listen
more from it.

AC/DC will be my thing for tomorrow. I just love to learn their guitar.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

another day

I just stayed home the whole day and it's a battle to pin down boredom. I
have read some things, watched "The Longest Yard" on pirated DVD and cooked

I just love the squid. I stuffed it with red bell peppers, onions,
tomatoes, basil and oregano.cooked it on high heat with cooking oil, garlic
and onions. I also added some Tabasco to get some zest. Dinner was heaven
and I'm very glad that mama loves it.

Anyway, I have to get some things for tomorrow as I try to get a new
project. I am asking for God's grace and I hope things will go smooth.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Weekend and new set of mp3s

I was dead drunk last Saturday night and I enjoyed having some good time
with my friends. There was so much food and so much beer being shared. I
just can't get into so much "Red Horse". I guess, I got kicked right
straight into my head. I just have to settle for "Strong Ice".

Rocky and Gold told me last Sunday night about what happened and I just want
to see some pictures taken by them.

Hmmm. Seems like salvation? Yayay!!!

I am also dropping some songs from my iPod as I try to get some new tunes to
it. I added U2's new album, Breaking Benjamin, Stone Temple Pilots and

Anyway, I just have to prepare for my day later. Thank you Lord!!! :)

Monday, September 05, 2005

Avenue S' Party Crew

These are my drinking buddies. Ayos!!!

I'll post more pictures soonies.

Try to get into Avenue S' website.

blog from my email

This is a test.

I'm trying to blog from my email client.



...happiness controls you

Friday, September 02, 2005

Kirk and Flux Quartet

Kirk Hammett of Metallica will perform with Flux Quartet on September 15, 2005.

Wow! I hope I could be there but I don't have the money to watch it. This is my wish to see Kirk do his thing on his guitar. He is such a virtuoso. How I wish I could get some videos on it

*sigh. I'm getting goose bumps.

Congratulations Jake!!!

I just got a call from my friend, Jake.

He has passed the board exam.

Congratulations!!! May God bless you more. You deserve it and please, have your rest and enjoy your time.

Some things...

I just woke up and I just have to finish a lot of things. I don’t know what to do as I am getting so much on my head.

Anyway, I’ll be out later to settle some issues with a client. I just can’t get into waiting for the unit I’ve asked from them for my program. Hmmmm. I hope it’ll be ok as I have to do more from it.

I was also able to watched “Year of the Yao” yesterday with Le. It was supposed to be “The Longest Yard” since it was posted as “Next Picture” last week. *sigh. I guess, I just have to wait for next week. I’ve been waiting for it since May.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Happy Birthday Le!!!

Happy Birthday to my friend, Le.

I hope things will go your way this time.

Be fine, have a nice day and God bless :)



I’m drunk and I’m trying to find my sanity on what I am doing right now. I got so much beer with Rocky, Gold and Le. I even tried smoking with straw on it. I’m having so much fun this time.

Anyway, Le will be having her birthday in a few minutes and maybe, beer will be brought down. Yikes!!!

Gold and I also played some football at the parking lot of Damosa Gateway. Home is what we feel about this place that we are dressed in plain shirts and shorts. *sigh. We were just bored and tried to be spontaneous on every thing that we might get into.

So much for now...I’m trying to find my sanity.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005


As usual, I was early for the day. I went to the Vince’s plastic plant to check on my program. So far, I’m happy about it and I’m getting myself ready for my next project with them.

After the day’s work, I was again thinking of getting myself a haircut. I just can’t get myself into combing my hair that’s why I just dry it off and wear my cap.

Anyway, after getting through all the thinking, Lé just showed up and helped me decide. We just went to the barbershop and I got my haircut. *wink

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Blue Monday

I love Monday. No work! I just stayed at home and had my rest. This is the best.

Anyway, I got myself a new webcam and I got my PC refreshed. I guess I just have to save some for additional sticks of memory.

Nothing much at this time…I just have to have more rest.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Mama's Birthday, etc.


I have never touched my computer since Friday. I was very much occupied with some things. I had my visit to my orthodontist. I had Ma’am Grace’s computer checked and Rocky asked me to install their new DVD-ROM drive at Avenue S. Again, I stayed there until I got myself exhausted. I was again on drinking mode and I just can’t imagine how my tolerance on alcohol has changed my drinking habit.

I went home at about 3 AM Sunday and went to bed at about 4:30 AM. I was about to sleep when mama asked me to talk about our thing with my father’s family. It was just an issue being raised by them about us being passive on their family affairs. Well, since we are that “passive”, then it’s not on my thing to exert some effort on it. I just have to get my sleep.


I woke up at 9 AM to have something for mama on her birthday. We just had some grocery at NCCC and had lunch at Mandarin. It was also nice of Auntie Paquit to call mama on her birthday to have her greetings. She also told me of getting me some new board shorts on her next package. I’m just excited about it.

Anyway, Auntie Nene, Auntie Cedes and my cousins Sunshine and Sugar and an unexpected guest, Nang Mercedes were here. Nang Cedes was the old lady back in grade school who is fond of getting to someone else’s palm for palm reading. I was again surprised on what she said about my future. I was just happy about it and I hope things would turn out that way.

So much for now as I’ll get to prepare for tomorrow. Holiday as it would be but I just have to continue working.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Movies and Bugs

I’m very happy that my program has been doing well and the user is getting the feel of it. I just hate it when users tend not to follow instructions and create bugs not related to the system. You know, users can also be bugs and it’s the hardest bug since I just can’t debug and modify changes.

After all those things, I was able to watch two movies with Lé. We were able to watch “The Great Raid” and “Bewitched”. Those two were nice and we really enjoyed watching those movies. We are also planning to watch “The Longest Yard” which will be shown next week.

Anyway, I’ll be having a very busy Saturday. I have to get a new webcam, help Ma’am Grace on her computer, visit my orthodontist and finish some paper works. I really hope that things will go my way and have a very good sleep. That’s all I need for now.

Friday, August 26, 2005

What a day!!! :)

Getting to the process of getting to the process is a very tedious task. I’m patient but when someone gets to my nerves, I just have to transcend and tell myself to be more patient. I just have to rationalize things just to get the grip of the situation. People are people and I just can’t impose what I want on a certain situation. Compromising is hard and it’s a nice experience when all of what I have seem to be consumed by people I hardly get along with.

Anyway, I’m happy that things are getting to its realization and I’m excited to move forward to my next project. I must say that I am sort of relieved and learned so much from this experience. I’m pretty much laid back, passively active and somewhat matured to my actions. Is this the effect of getting older? How I wish I could remain youthful and get wiser.

I also find it funny when people I hardly knew or just met tend to talk about my eyes and nose. I’m really uncomfortable with my female friend who tries to dig the topic. I’m just glad that “Strong Ice” helps me numb those senses. *sigh

I’m also hooked with Pinoy Big Brother. I was also thinking about getting to their next audition and try living on that situation. I just find it interesting and I must say, I’m hooked to this show.

My ears are all for Spineshank this day. I’m just feeling their music and I just love the ringing in my ears. So loud, heavy and melodic.

Hmmm. It’s also nice being kissed on a simulated environment with passion…Yayayyyy!

And...Happy Birthday to my friend, Felisa a.k.a. Tata. Just enjoy and God bless. :)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

hmmmmm :)

I just got home from Avenue S. I was able to fix their PC and I'm happy about it. We had some beer, some food and of course, some chat.

I just like the way things have been doing.

Anyway, so much for now. I just have to get some sleep. :)


Tuesday, August 23, 2005



Finally, I was able to “Photoshop” my pictures. I had my pictures scanned ages ago and had it on CDs. With so much boredom, I was quick to find and edit my grade school graduation picture. Not a pro but I’m happy with the result. :)

A Special Story of Love

I got this from Jennifer a.k.a. Mama Sarah. SHe's my high school friend. It's nice of her to forward me this story.

Anyway, I also like it to share here in my site.


Like any good mother, when Karen found out that another baby was on the
way, she did what she could to help her 3-year-old son, Michael,
prepare for a new sibling. They found out that the new baby was going
be a girl, and day after day, night after night, Michael sang to his
sister in Mommy's tummy. He was building a bond of love with his little
sister before he even met her.

The pregnancy progressed normally for Karen. In time, the labor pains
came. Soon it was every five minutes, every three, every minute. But
serious complications arose during delivery and Karen found herself in
hours of labor. Would a C-section be required?

Finally, after a long struggle, Michael's little sister was born. But
she was in very serious condition. With a siren howling in the night,
the ambulance rushed the infant to the neonatal intensive care unit at
Mary's Hospital, Knoxville, Tennessee. The days inched by. The little
girl got worse. The pediatrician had to tell the parents there is very
little hope. Be prepared for the worst. Karen and her husband contacted
a local cemetery about a burial plot. They had fixed up a special room
in their house for their new baby but now they found themselves having
to plan for a funeral.

Michael, however, kept begging his parents to let him see his sister.
"I want to sing to her", he kept saying. Week two in intensive care
looked as if a funeral would come before the week was over. Michael
kept nagging about singing to his sister, but kids are never allowed in
Intensive Care. Karen decided to take Michael whether they liked it or
not. If he didn't see his sister right then, he may never see her

She dressed him in an oversized scrub suit and marched him into ICU. He
looked like a walking laundry basket. The head nurse recognized him as
child and bellowed, "Get that kid out of here now.
No children are allowed." The mother rose up strong in Karen, and the
usually mild-mannered lady glared steel-eyed right into the head
nurse's face, her lips a firm line, "He is not leaving until he sings
to his sister" she stated. Then Karen towed Michael to his sister's

He gazed at the tiny infant losing the battle to live. After a moment,
he began to sing. In the pure-hearted voice of a 3-year-old, Michael
sang: "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when
skies ar e gray." Instantly the baby girl seemed to respond. The pulses
rate began to calm down and become steady. "Keep on singing, Michael,"
encouraged Karen with tears in her eyes.
"You never know, dear, how much I love you, please don't take my
sunshine away."

As Michael sang to his sister, the baby's ragged, strained breathing
became as smooth as a kitten's purr. "Keep on singing, sweetheart."

"The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my

Michael's little sister began to relax as rest, healing rest, seemed to
sweep over her.

"Keep on singing, Michael." Tears had now conquered the face of the
bossy head nurse. Karen glowed. "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
Please don't take my sunshine away..."

The next, day...the very next day...the little girl was well enough to
go home.

Woman's Day Magazine called it The Miracle of a Brother's Song. The
medical staff just called it a miracle. Karen called it a miracle of
God's love.


Monday, August 22, 2005

After a day's work :)

After a days work, I’m sort of exhausted. Avenue S’ CPU has been fixed, my files on my PC has been backed up and I was also able to do some emails. I’m also happy that I was able to help some friends on their assignment at school and at work. After all, what Baden-Powell has said, “The real way to get happiness if by giving happiness to other people”… It’s a nice feeling. I am also gaining new friends from it.

I’m almost done with my program at SAMULCO. It’s bad of me not to work on it on time but thank God I did it so fast. So fast that I could compare it to Metallica’s Disposable Heroes.

I was also able to play with Kira this afternoon. She’s so young and so strong. She likes the rope and likes to jump. It’s my favorite when she jumps for the rope and over and between the cages. Her bulky active body and the happiness that she radiates, it’s heaven for me. *sigh.

Anyway, I have changed my playlist on my iPod. Out Ill Niño and In Marilyn Manson. I also got some old Live, Tonic, Better Than Ezra, Collective Soul, Fountains of Wayne, Gin Blossoms and U2. It’s nice to hear some songs I’ve grown with.


I just woke up and my computer is not working the way I expect it to work. I’m using Avenue S’ CPU as I’m trying to fix mine beside me.

It was fine when I was done at 5 am this morning. I just have to back up everything. *sigh

Anyway, I hope everything will be fine.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Finding my sanity

It’s Kadayawan here in Davao and it’s about time for me to exhaust all the pressures that I had for the past weeks.

I decided to get out after dinner and went to PTA to find some things for myself. I’ve seen some shops with some ethnic goods. I was fascinated with some necklaces but when I tried getting to its details, it was of Scandinavian origin. I just can’t imagine how it got through the festivities. I just find it funny when some people who try to get into the roots tend to get into something they hardly knew.


Anyway, I was again getting “random” with my cell phone. I was able to get Jane to come with me to go to Avenue S to have some beers. Rocky, Eide, Franco and his girlfriend were there. It was boring but it has helped me forget some things that might keep me insane.


So far, I’m sort of relieved from loneliness.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

*sigh...what in blue hell

I had two boy-girl relationships in my life. First was a three week period and the second was, I was a “spare tire”

At first, my relationship with my first girlfriend was a result of an internet to phone friendship. We were cyber friends until the day she showed up and formalized the relationship.

It was fun. We were happy. We do things together. We laugh together. We were just being ourselves to each other. It was cut short when we parted ways and the relationship faded away. There was no formal break up. Maybe because we were far away to each other that things just don’t work between us.

After three years, I was able to meet someone who is very pretty but was having trouble with her boyfriend that time. Being friendly, I was an instant “all that” to her. Knowing her situation, I was being civil but began to fall for her. We ended in a secret relationship.

Just like in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, we care for each other, do things together and are with each other when needed. It was heaven but was really hard when you do things in secret. Conflicts started to grow until she grew passive to our relationship and called it quits. I was at her mercy when I want to be with her. She has to always check her availability…when she’s free from her bf.

I know it’s not the thing that should be but we were hoping that things would just go between us and work on it. I was stupid.


After those relationships, I moved on and started to find my happiness. At first, I tried not to be conscious about it with the thought of “it would just come if it’s meant to be” idea. Nothing happened about it and I grew impatient. Again, the plan has been changed.

I’ve been to progressive dates and sometimes, fall to the girl. The thing is, I always end up being alone at the end of the journey.

There was when I picked the wrong signals from a girl that I really thought that she was also for me… that I’m not boyfriend material…”Can we be friends?”. Then there was also this thing about my height. I’m comfortable with it until another girl told me about her preference to tall guys. You know, the line, “You are very fine, you are smart, funny and any girl would fall for you but you’re not tall.”


This world is so cruel to me. It was really hard dealing those situations. My self-esteem has dropped that I began to collect caps just to feel secure while I’m out trying to find my sanity in every thing that I do. I morphed into a grade A metal freak just to fill in unoccupied feelings within me. A friend even told me that I’m getting mean to myself and to her. That I sour grape sometimes. I’m just sorry about that.

*sigh. I hate thinking about the transformations but I just have to hold on something just to find my sanity. It hurts. I’m just a sore loser but things have to be learned. Things have to happen and things have to be rationalized.

I have to move on. I have to be kind to myself.

At this moment, I’m trying to find hope. I’m getting my eyes to someone. She’s kind; she’s pretty and a very beautiful being. She knows how to communicate, she knows how to laugh and she is interesting.

It’s a nice thing to think about. I’m always looking forward for her calls, her texts and the conversations.

But, I’ve learned my lessons. That I don’t have to expect too much from it…that I should expect the worst … that I should be ready to be dumped…

So cruel but it’s my world. *sigh

Friday, August 19, 2005

...sweet :)

*sigh. The best things in life come in unexpected times

I was just online to do routine tasks until I met someone who likes to talk on the phone.

It was sweet. The conversation was really fun. It was like a trip to the memory lane. We were talking about our pasts. I admit it, I was really hooked to this lady. I really feel comfortable with her. We were talking like we’ve know each other for some time. How I wish I could meet her soonies.


Anyway, as promised, I’m getting some mp3s for her.


Thursday, August 18, 2005

"Highway To Hell"

I’m on a “Highway To Hell”. I got AC/DC’s 25 years of albums in my iPod (1975-2000).

• 1975 - High Voltage (Australia)
• 1976 - T.N.T. (Australia)
• 1976 - High Voltage
• 1976 - Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap (Australia)
• 1976 - Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap
• 1977 - Let There Be Rock (Australia)
• 1977 - Let There Be Rock
• 1978 - Powerage
• 1978 - If You Want Blood You've Got It
• 1979 - Highway To Hell
• 1980 - Back In Black
• 1981 - For Those About To Rock We Salute You
• 1983 - Flick Of The Switch
• 1984 - '74 Jailbreak
• 1985 - Fly On The Wall
• 1986 - Who Made Who
• 1988 - Blow Up Your Video
• 1990 - The Razors Edge
• 1992 - Live
• 1995 - Ballbreaker
• 1997 - Bonfire
• 1997 - Live From The Atlantic Studios
• 1997 - Let There Be Rock The Movie - Live In Paris
• 1997 - Volts
• 2000 - Stiff Upper Lip

I just have to switch to classic rock….Eeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwww!

DSL, friends and music

I’ll be getting myself a DSL connection here at home. I just have to get PLDTs promo of P 999/month with 256 kbps. This is reasonable for us since mama and I are hardcore pre-paid internet card users.

My friend told me that we’ll be having the connection on Saturday and we’re excited about it. Hmmm. That would be lots of mp3s, videos and information for our disposal. Hehehe. My first task would be metal music from the past and present. I just have this long list of my favorite bands and I hope to get them on my iPod. That would be very nice to my ears.

I am also happy to meet Judemar and communicate with Sherwin. These are my brothers in music. Both of them are virtuosi. I really miss the times when we just play the songs that we like.

This is really my dream, to play again with my friends. This is the best feeling. How I wish this would be sooner.

Hopefully, this year, I can get myself an electric guitar. I just have to finish some things with my work and continue in playing some music.

And also, I thank my friends for the greetings. God bless to all of you :)

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

My birthday as it should be

The greatest gift that I had for my birthday was… I was able to get a very good sleep. I’m very much recharged and I’m back to what I am supposed to do with so much enthusiasm.

I woke up at about 11am and did some emails. I also got some text messages of greetings and a call from Mika. I’m very happy and pleased that some of my friends were able to greet. I am really blessed to have them.

I also went to church to give thanks to God for the blessings that He has for us and to remember Nanay on her death anniversary. My faith has been strengthened and I’ve never been happy and secured with Him.

Of course, a birthday wouldn’t be complete without ice cream. I got my favorite mango flavored ice cream to share it with my family. We were so happy sharing the food… just like what I imagined for my day.

Rocky, whose birthday is the same as mine, also invited me to Avenue S for his celebration. I wish I was able to get into the picture but I’m just happy staying at home. Maybe a next time would do.

A nice way to celebrate my birthday :)

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Happy birthday to me :)

I just woke up and I have to do some emails. I feel so refreshed and I have to finish some tasks before I do some things for myself.

Hmmmm, it’s my birthday today and I’m happy that I’m still alive. Yehey! I don’t know what’ll it be later but I just have to take things lightly.

So much for now as I need some sleep. :) Thank you Lord :)

Monday, August 15, 2005

...busy :)

This has been a very busy day for me. I have never slept for 32 hours. I did some fine tuning on the program for Vince’s plastic plant and I’m very happy that my program has served its purpose. This is the best feeling so far.

I’m also excited on my next project with him. I’ll be doing a payroll program and hopefully do a biometric setup with it. It is almost the same thing with my next project with SAMULCO.

Next month, I’ll be joggling between projects. I don’t know how to deal with it but I know God will help me do those things. I know, God is unfolding His graces to us. He is so kind and I’m just thankful for that.

Anyway, few hours from now would be my birthday. Thank you Lord for another year and another chance to be of service to You.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Fine tuning, Ricky and Durian

I’m still doing some final modifications to the program for Vince’s plastic plant. I hope it’ll turn out fine as I try to fine tune it.

Anyway, I had a talk with my cousin Ricky and I’m glad that we understand each other. He has his accent and it’s nice to comprehend on the words that he tried to say. It’s a preview on what Australia is. Hehe.

We also had durian this afternoon and I just can’t imagine how our appetite made through all those fruits. We consumed about an average of 9 seeds. *sigh

So much for that as I’ll resume doing my thing.

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Plain Saturday

I had a presentation with Alex at SAMULCO for their Polyclinic system. I am happy that he was ok with it and I now have time to get into details of my program with Vince’s.

My birthday is getting soon. I don’t know what to do if I’ll just treat it as an ordinary day or just have a party atmosphere. Hmmm. Maybe I’ll just get the feel of it and do whatever I might get into.

Right now, I’m craving for flame grilled burgers. I just have to finish some things here and I’ll check some DVDs at Victoria Plaza. My friend told me that he was able to get a copy of “The Longest Yard”. I hope to get one for myself.

Friday, August 12, 2005


It’s very hard being the “Kuya” of the family. I’m not a very good person and there’s no way in hell that I could be a saint. I know it’s also nice to be bad but I have to be good…for my friends, for myself and for my family.

It’s really hard to reaffirm the goodness that has to radiate within me everyday. It takes much of an effort and I just can’t stand to overlook the whereabouts of my siblings. I’m liberated but I don’t want my siblings to get into trouble. I just hate being the “bad ass” of their eyes. *sigh

Anyway, I’ll talk to them later and I hope God will find a way to make things better between us.

As for now, I’m into “Alice In Chains”. It’s so nice in my ears.

Thursday, August 11, 2005



Have you ever been in a situation that is inevitable enough to forget your ideals?


I was caught unaware of the kiss that I got from a friend last night. I wasn’t able to react. I was a dimwit.


Her mouth was like Mick Jagger’s. I was almost swallowed and in heaven’s name, I forgot what the world has more to offer. It was like a scene in a movie. All that I liked and all that I wanted was spoiled in that very moment. I don’t know if it would be nice to kiss my dream girl soon. It was a massacre.

Ngorkkk! Ptoooo^!

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Thank you Lord. :-)

Thank you Lord for the graces. I don’t understand your plan but I know things will go the way good things do. I’m just thankful of the opportunities. Thank you again my Lord.

getting to my nerves

Again, my “friend” has her thing again for me. She "misses" me and she wants me to call her…on her cellphone.


There’s a landline and she just wants me to get on the cellphone. I just don’t know the joy that she gets on it but I find it very costly and irritating. If she really is my “friend”, she would pick up the phone and call me on landline.

Anyway, I just had a straight face for her and tried to ignore it. Is she trying to annoy me or what? I hope she’ll end up on a realization.

I also have to play with Boo and Kira tomorrow morning as I miss them so much.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Get Physical

My decision to get myself into shape was a very hard one. I jogged last Sunday at 4 PM and my body still hurts. I know how to do this the right way but my body just can’t get into the right track. Maybe, I just have to have some adjustments and I am hoping to get things right soon.

I am also thinking of jogging with Kira or Boo. I know it would be fun but I just have to be prepared for this would require much of my strength and my ability to control them. My dogs are still very young and they act like little kids who like to explore and play.

Monday, August 08, 2005


I’m not “All That” and never in blue hell that would happen. I just find it annoying when somebody whom you never met but relatively “close to each other” because of texting, seem to be possessive. She wants me to text and call her on a periodic basis, just to know each other’s statuses. What in the blue hell is that supposed to mean?

I’m not a texter and I only call on my cellphone when needed. I usually do emails and do my calls on landline. And I can use a P 300 prepaid card for 2 months. With the country’s situation, I just find impractical to do such a thing when you can use the landline. And I’m not a thermometer to be monitored on a periodic basis.

I’m not rude but she begins to irritate me. She wants me to stay in contact with her… ALWAYS. Even if the last text that I’ve sent was in her inbox for 3 hours. She also asks too many questions with an answer that she has on her mind that she expects me to answer. I also have my life and my life doesn’t only revolve around her. I have my work, my family, my friends and my dogs. And I’m not the perfect being that has to be possessed by someone. I can be a sick bastard who is ready to fire bullets on anybody’s sick business.

If she reads this, I hope she’ll be on a realization. If not, I’ll be happy to go on with my life.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Conquering the demon in me

I’m sort of getting into my former self. I was able to get out with a refreshed outlook. It was like a race track. I just went straight to my things. No distractions, No emptiness.

Metal music really helped a lot and the attitude that comes with it will be my thing for the next few days.

Of course, I also thank God for His Divine Help. I was able to offer some candles at Sta. Ana Parish and asked for His guidance. He really is the Great Provider.

Anyway, I’m getting myself to jog tomorrow at 5 AM. I just have to get back into shape.

Friday, August 05, 2005

What’s with being empty?

For the past days, my struggle for filling the void within me was such an effort. Everywhere I go and wherever my eyes would reach, I could see myself as the loneliest being. Why in the blue hell should I undergo such an ordeal?

I’m trying not to get conscious about it but things just try to get into me. It’s always an “In Your Face” approach. I just want the loner that I was… where I could be passively active to any of the things that I would do… where I could just be happy and contented with my things… where I could just ignore being the loneliest being at the end of the day.

But I’m not getting younger. Most of my friends are married and the rest has their own girlfriends. It was ok being with them but this demon within me creeps like hell… that I’m a sore loser who is dying to have someone in my arms, in my mind and in my heart.

Anyway, I’m still hoping that I’ll get over it. Should I sing “Let It Go” by Tonic, “The Day I Tried To Live” by Soundgarden or just blast “Triad” by Tool?

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Overcoming emptiness

My braces hurt my teeth. I’m still getting the feel of it and I hope I could adjust soonies.

I’m sort of overcoming this feeling of emptiness for the past few hours. Thanks to the music that fuels unoccupied feelings within me. I’m slowly changing my playlist to some grunge and of course, old school rock and metal. I have some Motorhead, AC/DC, Trivium, Soilwork, Shadows Fall, Dimmu Borgir, Alice In Chains, Black Crowes, Dream Theater, Nine Inch Nails, Godsmack, Guns ‘N Roses, Nirvana, Hatebreed, Helmet, Killswitch Engage, Lamb Of God, Arch Enemy, Cradle Of Filth, Megadeth, Metallica, Mudvayne, Soundgarden and The Wallflowers.

I’m also excited to my new project with Davao Whitewater Adventure. I’ll be doing their website and do some pictorials with them. At last, I can do rafting and get the feel of the waters. This would be very fun.

I also thank Yanni for giving her time talking to me last night. She was such a sweetheart and I really like having conversations with her. She’s a big help in filling the void within me. Naïve yet wild.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

empty again

This is my third day of having this empty feeling. I just can’t get myself out of this thing. I’m trying not to be conscious with it but when I’m idle, this thing just clouds my thoughts. *sigh

Anyway, I had my braces checked and my orthodontist replaced my upper elastics to “chain”. I have no choice but to tolerate the pain. It’s been months since my last chain.

Later this evening, I’ll finish archiving my files. I hope it’ll be done without “coasters”.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

:) hmmmmmmmm


At last, I now have a breathing space. I’ll be coming back at the Plastic Plant on Monday to finalize things. Yes!

Not much pressure at this time.

I can now backup my files and mp3s and have my PC restored to its optimum state. I’ll also visit my dentist tomorrow as I am 9 days late of schedule because of my work and her family reunion. I also have to finalize some things at SAMULCO and make my program work for them.


Monday, August 01, 2005


I don’t know but things in my life have been so boring. I’ve been to the same computer thing, doing some programs and getting into a cyber relationship.

What’s with my life now? I’m just a sore loser trying to get a life on the net which I can’t get from the real world.


I feel so empty…

Saturday, July 30, 2005

:), hair and guitar

I’m glad that my Friday has been kind to me. I was able to deploy my program at Vince’s, got my cabbage from him, paid my bills and helped Tito Manny.

I’ll also have to visit my orthodontist tomorrow as I am 7 days late from my appointment. I just want my braces out and I’m tired of this “cutie cutie” thing on my teeth.

I’ll also be missing my barber as I decided to have longer hair in the next few months.

Guitar playing would be my thing next month. Franco will bring his guitar on Sunday and I’ll be taking charge of the thing. I haven’t played guitar for 2 years and I think I forgot how to tune and play some favorite tunes. I’ll try to play some old rock tunes and try to get some new breed of music to my hands. I just want to play some new metal music from Soilwork, Shadows Fall and maybe Evanescence.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

tired but ok

I went home at about 3 AM. I was with Rocky, Allan and Franco at Avenue S.

I fixed their PC and tried their sizzling squid. It’s one of my favorites there. I just love the taste of it and I think I have to come back for more.

I woke up at about 8 AM and prepared for my day with Vince at their plastic plant. So far, I am happy with the thing there. I was able to present it with ease and the users just got the feel of it. I hope things will go ok tomorrow as I’ll try finishing it all.


So much for now as I am waiting for Franco to have his guitar.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Breathing space

For the past days, I’ve turned off my cellphone and I never went out from my shell. I was very busy doing my program for Vince’s business and I am very glad that we’ll deploy it tomorrow. Ayos!

I also got some emails and I just have to get things done with it. I’m very much confused on these things and I hope that God will guide me in deciding on what to do on those things.

I am almost done in backing up my mp3s and I hope I could have a decent archiving on those things. I am overwhelmed with my collection and I hope I could hear some of them on my iPod.

So much for now as I have to go to Tagi and at Avenue S.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

From the taxpayer :)

I got this from Norwynn and I think this has got to be read by politicians and the aktibista. :) hehe


Walang kwenta ang Pilipinas
By:(isang ordinaryong office worker na ayaw na magbayad ng tax ever!)

Hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko. Sukang-suka na ko sa mga nangyayari sa bansang 'to!

Walang katapusang corruption, walang
kamatayang pangbabatikos, pagbabatuhan ng tae at pagpapa-taasan ng ihi ng mga pulitiko sa bawat isa, walang tigil na imbestigasyon ng kung ano- anong isyu pero wala namang matinong resolusyon, walang puknat na pag-aagawan ng kapangyarihan sa pagitan ng mga partido, patuloy na pagdami ng tamad at tangang Pilipino, patuloy na pakikipaglaban ng ideolohiyang wala namang silbi.

Ang gobyerno ng Pilipinas, talo pa ang septic tank na hinihigop ng Malabanan - saksakan ng dumi at napakabaho. Kaya hindi nakakapagtaka na Ang Pilipinas ang isa sa pinakamahirap at corrupt na bansa sa mundo. Kasi lahat sila bulok, lahat sila walang kwenta. Lahat sila sugapa sa kapangyarihan at sa pera.

ANAK NG TETENG!!$#%Q!&!*@!


Lagi na lang sinasabi ng mga pulitiko: Ipaglaban ang masa! Tulungan ang masa! Mahalin ang masa! PUNYETA! MASA LANG BA ANG TAO SA PILIPINAS?






Tuwing nakikita ko ang payslip ko, nag-iinit ang ulo ko at gusto kong maiyak sa inis. Napakalaki ng tax na binabawas sa akin pero ginagamit lang sa walang kwentang bagay ang perang pinaghirapan ko. Lahat ng pagtitipid ginagawa ko para suportahan ang sarili ko, pamilya ko at ang punyetang bansang to. Ni hindi ako makabili ng chicken and spaghetti meal sa Jollibee kahit gutom na gutom na ko. Nag-tya- tyaga ako sa waffle na tig-P10, o kaya pag may konting pera, junior bola-bola siopao sa Mini-Stop sa halangang P20.

E kung yung pera ko na pinapangbabayad sa tax sa kin na lang napunta, e di sana nakakapanood pa ko ng sine at least 2 beses sa isang buwan.
Nakabili na sana ako ng bagong rubber shoes.
Nakapagpagawa na sana ako ng sarili kong bahay.

Yung tax na binabayad ko, karamihan nun derecho sa bulsa ng mga corrupt na mga government officials at workers. Habang hirap na hirap akong i-budget ang pera ko, sila naman nagpapakasarap sa mga mansyon. SUV's at luxury cars pa ang dina-drive nila, samantalang ako sa pedicab lang sumasakay!


Yung tax na binabayad ko, pinapangsuporta sa mga mahihirap. Saan ba galing ang pera pangpagawa ng housing at pagtulong sa mga mahihirap, di ba sa mga manggagawa na nagbabayad ng buwis! Pero karamihan ng mahihirap, kung umasta kala mo inaapi sila ng sobra.


Ang daming mga tambay sa kalye na walang trabaho pero ang laki ng katawan. Eh kung sila ba nagkargador sa pier eh di sana may pera sila.


Naaawa ako sa mga batang pakalat-kalat sa kalye at namamalimos. Imbes na nag-aaral, dumadagdag lang sila sa bilang ng mga future criminals sa Pinas. Hindi ako magtataka na yung batang nakita kong namamalimos sa Cubao, pagkatapos ng ilang taon cellphone snatcher na.


Palibhasa walang mga trabaho at walang
pinagkaka-abalahan, kaya nagkakalabitan at nagsusundutan na lang maghapon, magdamag. Sa totoo lang, nakakabilib. Kasi kahit sa ilalim ng tulay o sa kariton lang, nakakabuo pa rin ng bata!
Ibig sabihin, maabilidad ang mga Pinoy. Kung gugustuhin, gagawan ng paraan. Kahit sa makipot, mabaho at maduming lugar - SOLVE!

Isa pang mga grupo ng tao na nakakainis, yung mga aktibista, NPA at kung ano-ano pang ideological political groups. Sabi nila, mahal na mahal nila ang Pilipinas kaya pinagpalalaban nila ang kanilang mga adhikain. PUNYETA! EH HINDI RIN KAYO NAGBABAYAD NG TAX! ANG KAKAPAL RIN NG MGA MUKHA NYO! MGA IPOKRITO! MAHAL DAW ANG PILIPINAS AYAW NAMAN MAGBAYAD NG BUWIS! BAKIT MAY BIR COLLECTOR BA SA GITNA NG MENDIOLA AT EDSA?! MAY TAX COLLECTION BA SA BUNDOK?!




CLEANSING. Alisin (mas maganda kung patayin na lang) ang lahat ng pulitiko at political families sa puwesto. Tibagin ang lahat ng mapanirang organizations at grupo. Itapon sa malayong isla o kaya i-pwersa ng hard labor ang mga sobrang tamad na mga Pilipino. Ihiwalay ang mga bata sa kanilang mga tamad at tangang magulang upang makapag-aral sila at maturuan na maging mabuting tao at mamamayan. Magkaron ng bagong lider na walang political ties at utang na loob sa kahit sino.


Kung kinakailangang magka-giyera para magtino ang mga Pilipino, ayos lang. Masyado na kasing matigas ang ulo ng mga tao dito. Gusto ng kalayaan, pero hindi naman handang panagutan ang responsibilidad ng pagiging malaya. Meron daw pinaglalaban na prinsipyo at adhikain pero takot namang mamatay para dito.

(Sa mga nakaka-alam sa anime na Gundam Wing, yan ang inspirasyon ko sa New Pinas hehe. I love you Zechs! I love you Treize!)

Hangga't hindi nagkakaron ng radical change, patuloy na walang kwenta ang Pilipinas at patuloy na magiging tanga ang majority ng mga Pilipino.
Sa dami ng nag-mi-migrate na Pilipino sa ibang bansa, dadating ang Panahon na minority na lang ng population sa Pilipinas ang may utak. Yung mga magagaling na Pilipino, malamang maubos na. Sobra na kasi silang na-fru-frustrate at na-de- depress sa mga nakikita nila.

lang taon pa at aalis na rin ako sa Pilipinas. Wala kong balak na magkaron ng pamilya sa isang bansa na hindi pinapahalagahan ang kontribusyon ng mga taong tunay na bumubuhay dito. Kawawa naman ang magiging anak ko kung dito sya mabubuhay.

Sa totoo lang, broken hearted ako. Minahal ko din ang bansang ito. Pilit kong pinagtatanggol kahit bulok. Nakarating na ko ng ibang bansa, pero pinili kong bumalik. Pero ngayon, ayoko na. Suko na ko. Sayang lang ako sa bansang to. Simple lang naman ang hiling ko. Gusto ko lang mabuhay ng tahimik at maayos. Gusto ko na kahit paano eh maipagmalaki ang Pilipinas. Pero wala eh.
Doomed to be jologs ang bansang to.

Alam ko marami pa ang umaasa at naniniwala sa pagbabago. Good luck and God bless! Sana tama kayo at mali ako.

Beer *sigh

Friday night was great. I was at Avenue S with Inin to discuss things about her sister’s website. It was also the chance to have Avenue S’ PC fixed.

Anyway, Franco, Rocky, Eide, Allan and Addie were there. They had their thing as I did my fixing. I should have brought my kit always as friends always ask for help in unexpected times. I guess I just have to be superhero-like. Always ready.

I was done fixing at about 12 MN and beers just flowed like water flowing to Bankerohan river. Hehe. I had 8 bottles of San Miguel Strong Ice and I just can’t imagine my tolerance for alcohol. Never in blue hell did I think of drinking beer as my thing as I hate the taste of beer. I really don’t know why in heaven’s name that I got myself into it. Is this the effect of getting to sleep at almost 5 am and wake up at almost 9 am?

I also find it great to play foozball and throwing and catching a football while tipsy. It was like a simulated case of virtual reality.


Thursday, July 21, 2005

Trying Hard

My Thursday is not that great. I stayed at home doing the program and I’m just exhausted with it.

While doing my thing, my brother was channel surfing and caught his attention on a new band (Cueshe). I’m very surprised to hear that their vocalist is trying to sound like Eddie Vedder, becoming like Creed’s. A little longer, he sounds like Jessa Zaragosa.

What’s with the modulated voice?


Wednesday, July 20, 2005


I’m almost done with my program and I’m surprised that I’m not the same zombie as I used to be.

I slept at about 5 am but I never had the tired feeling when I woke up at 9:30 am.

Maybe because I was chatting with my new friend while doing the program. Maybe because I was happy to meet her. hehehe

Hmmmmm. I just like the feeling.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Top 25

I was about to change my playlist on my iPod when I checked my iTunes for my Top 25 Most Played songs on my iPod.

I'm still hooked with NIN and Soilwork.

Monday, July 18, 2005


Never in blue hell did I get online since Friday.

I was so tired from my trip to Norala and Marbel. We were there to have things done for Auntie Paquit. I’m very glad that we were able to get what’s for her and it’s a nice feeling to finally step on the land that has been stolen from us.

Anyway, one down and four more to go. We just have to get into the cases and we are very glad that we are on the right track. Our lawyer has done good things and I hope we’ll win the four cases.

Sunday was still fine for me. I was with Kamiseta to fix their POS. I was with Kaye to teach her Microsoft Access and I also bought some things to clean the bathroom. I’m very glad to clean the bathroom with some new tools. I got a new brush and sponge and my favorite, Mr. Muscle. No need to scrub.

So much for now, I just have to get some icons for my program.

Friday, July 15, 2005


I was very busy doing the program and my presentation for Vince’s program that I slept at about 4 AM of Friday. *sigh*

My Friday was very loaded with lots of things. At 8:30 AM, I was at Bro. Rey’s office to check the details of the presentation for Project Patriotic Davao. I was asked by him to do a presentation for the project. I was very confused as I am going to finish two programs for the next 30 days. I hope I could squeeze some time for that.

At about 10 AM, I was supposed to be at Ma’am Grace’s home to have her PCs networked. The good thing is, she texted me to have it moved in the afternoon. I was very happy and hurriedly went home to get some sleep. I woke up at about 11:30 AM and had my brunch.

After the meal, I prepared myself for the schedules in the afternoon. I have to deposit my money, get to Vince’s shop for the presentation and to Ma’am Grace’s home for the network setup. So far, it’s all been done. Ayos!

I just have to wait for 2 AM (Saturday) later as we’ll go to Norala to get things done on Auntie Paquit’s farm land.


My Thursday was not that loaded. I was supposed to be at Ma’am Grace’s home in the morning and at Vince’s office in the afternoon. Both of them have moved the schedule on Friday.

Anyway, I just stayed at home in the morning and decided to have the other things done in the afternoon I went to the bank to have my check changed for cash and to my orthodontist to have my braces checked.

I really like being called by the teller when they ask about my I.D. I just find it very funny when they try to confirm my details on it and to compare my picture to my face. Hahahaha. I have my “rocker” look on my I.D. while I presently have this short-haired geek style. I just like their suspicious eyes on me.

I also went to Avenue S to have their PC checked. The Rhapsody program has become abnormal for the past days and they just can’ get into their subscription.

Getting home was also fun. I bought 5 durians and we just love it. I just love the taste and the smell.


Thursday, July 14, 2005

...The Bakiki Boys

The 4 of the 6 Bakiki boys have regrouped yesterday. Nat2x, Jojo, Norwynn and I have met at the office and just talked about everything. We had lunch and dinner together and as usual, Nat2x just can’t allow us to pay for the bills. He’s still the same Nat2x with a longer hair.

We just talked and laughed with stories we have shared. Nat2x is here to for a vacation and works as computer/mainframe personnel on a financial institution in Ireland. Jojo has decided to come back as a systems developer. We’ve been helping him in setting up his PC and the codes he could work on. Norwynn and I are on the same turf on systems and web development.

It could be better if Vince and Isaias are with us. Vince has been aloof and we are very worried about him. I know, things have changed in our chosen careers but we still love him. Isaias is into teaching. He’s busy with it but we still hope that they’ll show up before Nat2x will go back to Ireland.

I’m very happy that we were able to see each other and we hope we could do things together again.

May God bless us all.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005


Finally, we’re able to finish our home improvement project. We started at 9 am yesterday and were finished at about 7 pm. All of us took part on it and we are all satisfied.

I just love the feeling of doing it with my family. From planning, purchasing and doing it, we tend to work with our differences. I think it’s a great family time. We never did such a thing for the longest time. I’m thankful to the Lord about what happened last June 29. This has made us closer to each other.

Anyway, I also had a chance to watch the Fantastic Four with Xeng. She’s my new friend and I really enjoyed the time with her. I think she’s cute and I just like the way she smiles.

The thing that I like most about her? She also knows how to laugh.

Monday, July 11, 2005

DIY, Kat and short haired girls

My trip to the hardware and D.I.Y. store just made me realized my passion for carpentry and home improvement. I just love the tools and how things are made with them.

When I was in Grade 6, I used to have this woodworking/carpentry subject. I was very passionate about doing my projects and I’m very proud of my works. I’ve done an acrobat toy, table tennis racket, medicine cabinet, wooden ladle, wood carved “COME IN” sign, study lamp and other things. I just love the feel of the tools and the time I spent with them.

Anyway, I’m starting to collect new tools for myself. They’re so nice. I hope I could fill a toolbox.

I also got to a new testimonial from Kat at Friendster. We became friends at Pinoyster and from that, we just chat and chat at Yahoo! Messenger. I don’t talk that serious on “chat” with strangers but I just like the time with her. She’s into track and field, badminton and gymnastics. She even won medals on those sports. How I wish I could watch any of her games and do some cheering.


Tomorrow, my brother and I will finish the home improvement project that we’ve started. This would be fun as I did the computing on the plan. The painting was done and I’ll be doing some application of the adhesive on the floor for the vinyl. I hope things will go our way.

I’m also back to my fascination with short haired girls. I just love the confidence.


Saturday, July 09, 2005


I really have fun chatting. This is one of my conversations with an unknown Goth lady.

Aldrin : hi
Aldrin : :)
gothic_illusions_F : asl
Aldrin : 26 m dvo
Aldrin : u? asl pls
Aldrin : :)
gothic_illusions_F : 21fdvo
Aldrin : :)
Aldrin : u got pix?
gothic_illusions_F : nope
Aldrin : hmmmmmmmm
Aldrin : san ka now?
gothic_illusions_F : cafe
Aldrin : r u with someone?
Aldrin : goth ka ba talaga?
gothic_illusions_F : sabihin kung nagsisimula plang
gothic_illusions_F : i lyk 2 do it
Aldrin : ic
Aldrin : r u wearing like goth now?
gothic_illusions_F : yup
Aldrin : with makeup?
gothic_illusions_F : d maxado
Aldrin : ic
Aldrin : r u into rituals?
gothic_illusions_F : nope
gothic_illusions_F : nagprapractice ng spell
Aldrin : wow
Aldrin : spell DOG daw
Aldrin : hehe
Aldrin : =))